Fallin in LOVE

So I have been a christian all my life and I love Jesus.  However, I never let myself fall actually IN love with him. This past week I have falling completely truly, deeply, madly in love with Jesus. I got set free from my past and the grip that it had on my future.  This last week I got baptized in the ocean. This is time is marked as a New Beginning for me and my life.  I understand now what the cross truly means and what Jesus did for me on that day. I gave up my rights to my family, to friends, to money, sleep, and etc... and declared that nothing is mine, but everything is His and that I'll give up anything to follow Him.  The most amazing thing happened this week and that was i truly learned how to forgive and the importance of forgiveness.  I got rid of so much bitterness that I had let build up over time.  Without forgiveness it is literally IMPOSSIBLE to be close and have a relationship with Jesus. It all made so much since I thought to myself "Wow no wonder why I couldn't get close to God" So I totally got rid of so much un-forgiveness and confessed so many things to different people. I truly can say what I never thought I was going to say, but I feel like a completely different person.  The things that I used to want are not the same things that I want now, the way I think about things are not at all the way that I used to think about stuff, and my opinions on things have changed so much.  I am starting to see through God's eyes.  Everyday I can hardly wait to see the next thing God is going to show me.  I am finally content with it just being me and God and having him control my life.  Its amazing how much God can do in just a few weeks and how your whole heart can be changed. Its hard to explain all the things that are going on here.  I feel like I am suppose to come back here and staff a DTS and then come to their Counseling School sometime next year or either in the fall of this year.  But this is something I am still praying about, but I love everything about this island and YWAM has so many connections and a great ministry program to get involved in. I encourage everyone that reads this to dig deep into the word and do whatever you can to hear God's voice!